.Monday, December 18, 2006 ' 21:06 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
Today must have been my worst day at the hospital so far.My grandmother's condition had taken for the worse, with the internal bleeding intensifying and the doctors unable to detect the cause.Our medical service providers must have been so immuned to all the different types of illnesses that patients suffer from to the extent that they had no qualms about diagnosing a patient as "seriously ill" and "unknown chances" without any tinge of emotions or specifically sympathy. That aside, this is actually the very first time that I actually felt afraid of losing that matriachal figure in my household. At 77, she is the only one holding my paternal side of the family together. It is hard for us to see a matriach whom we all, children and grandchildren alike had feared all this while was helpless before us today, with all the tubes and the wires attached to her.She could not even blink her eyes to shed her tears. I knew she was in pain, and yet there was nothing we all could do.The packets of blood induced to her veins made me nauseous. The sight of her unable to scold or reprimand us made me totally uncomfortable.Im praying only for the best. May Allah give her the strength to pull through the various diagnostic tests and endoscopes.I need a good cry.
