.Tuesday, October 24, 2006 ' 17:09 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
The moment the takbir is heard, the mood in my family goes down from that of excitement and happiness, to that of nostalgia and silence. It was only natural for my mum to shed her silent tears as memories of her loss were refreshed each year at this time. My maternal grandmother was lost to cancer on the morning of Raya decades ago just when prayer preparations were about to be made. Thus, Aildilfitri takes on a whole new meaning for us as a family, something more than just an avent of happiness.All thanks to Allah SWT, we are able to come together again to celebrate our victory in this month of Syawal. This year, for some reasons, Ramadhan and Aidilfitri seems to be more significant and special. Maybe it's because of age. Maybe it's the things that had happened. Or maybe, it was because i was more involved than ever in this year's preparation. Whatever it is, I felt myself clinging on closer to my faith over the month.And this morning, when i saw the overflowing number of Muslims gathering together at the old and much isolated surau opposite my block (till some of them had to sembahyang like wayy out of the surau), I felt a mixture of undescribable feelings. I was proud at the unity of us Muslims and i was deeply touched when many of them started tearing one after another; it was as if i was in a different world altogether from the one we usually are in.To all my friends, I'd like to seek your forgiveness in the event of any wrong doings. And may this Aidilfitri bring you much strength as it brought to me. Minal Aidil Walfaizin.
