.Friday, October 06, 2006 ' 00:00 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
im feeling so blue today.
i find it so strange how people can have a change of heart so quickly.
well, actually ive had a changed of heart too.
i went from guy-crazy to falling in love to ultimate devotion to heart break to extreme agony to numbness.
it's total numbness im feeling right now.
and why God, did you have to let me meet him?
i noe. it's a Ramadhan term test.
but why did i have to see him when he is in a state of happiness, with an apparent joy that he himself testified never to feel again.
im not trying to be selfish and proclaim that he has no right to joy.
im just feeling short changed. maybe just a little envious.
i have many things on my mind right now. it's school. home. tuition. and the works.
things are just so tough. im feeling the strain already.
i need to create time for myself. it's been a long while since ive given myself a portion of my time.
