.Friday, October 13, 2006 ' 15:57 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
I am so proud of the ranges of emotions that i have in me.It was a fairly great morning for me. I woke up fine. Had a not-so-bad bus trip to school...everything was within the normalcy of life. and SUDDENLY i had to see HIM :) and what more could he have done than to smile at an excited me. and mind you..i came to the conclusion that he looks like winnie the pooh. (and yatie agrees) i was just disappointed that for the 2 days i rarely see him around school, i was dressed so ewwk-ly. anyway, that aside..we starting emo-ing in the empty room to while time away..with me smiling and talking to myself and my 'radio rosak' belting out jiwangs from the 1880s. i wonder if all that have been caught on cam or not. hmm..and suddenly, i started to cry.i dont know why.i just started to feel a strong tinge of lonliness in my heart.it's like i can feel a string lug at my heart and a sense of hopelessness deep within me. i cant describe the feeling. it just came by. it was just there. i miss him so much that i dont want him back.im looking forward to the buka-ing tmr i forsee a session of laughter and madness :)
