.Friday, June 23, 2006 ' 23:12 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
my hormones are probably swirling about in an upset motion over these few days.
i've been feeling ultra-sensitive, ultra-unhappy and just so not in the mood kind of mood.
i take even the slightest of things to heart.
i get merajuk very fast.
i get irritated so easily.
and i get mad over trivial issues.
my heart is tired from all the apprehension i've been facing.
today, i had a major fight with that dumbo of a tuition kid; as if we were lil kids fighting over a game of masak-masak.
but here, my anxiety is totally grounded with a strong basis.
his prelims are like so near. and he hasnt even got the basic facts right.
yeah granted that his grades improved from 40 plus to a decent 50 plus range.
but given his laid back and nochlant attitude, how is he gg to make it?
am i wrong to get angry when, I, in all my heart and soul, go all out to teach him a certain stuff, and he is his totally otak-berjambul attitude, sit down and play with his food?
and to make it worse, he asked me; "Kak, why are u so angry? haha.relax ah."
haha. relax.
yes girl. relax.
im like a time bomb NEEDING to be exploded.
let me count the number of people i got into inside conflicts with/ got irritated with over these 2 days.
1. my sec sch classmates. (like there are 30 plus of them?)
2. my aunt
3. my bro
4. my dad (cant remember what dad irritated me abt tho)
5. syaz- as usual
6. tuition kid dumbo
7. tuition kid dumbo's bro
8. the 2 neighbours kids staying on the right who kept shouting like a mad lion being strangled by a chicken
9. the neighbour on the left who keeps knocking the door every few hrs
10. the kfc guy who otak-berjambully made me repeat my order so many times cos apparently he said "your voice isnt coherent enuf....."
(that otak-berjambul probably just learnt the word coherent and was dying to use it on someone)
11. the kfc guy's manager who was flirting openly with a teen girl that made me feel utterly nauseous.
12. the apek at watsons who asked me whether i was philipine or thai.
13. the mat motor who fell down in front of me and caused me to be terperanjat.
(and otak berjambul me didnt even bother to help him. how did i become so evil?)
tell me. am i going crazy?
or is it normal?
