.Monday, June 26, 2006 ' 23:37 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
the look of a confused girl.
the aura of a confused girl.
i have it.
im just so confused.
how many gateways are there to our heart?
when we love someone, do we think with our hearts, our soul or our brains?
or do we not think at all?
and how do we noe if we are really in love?
do we just noe it? or do we become more ignorant of that feeling of love the deeper we fall into that pit?
am i being metaphysical or am i just being crazy?
quoting from a cuute friend! of mine who once told me after i was suffering from a post-heavy-crush-trauma:
"you thought you knew him but u dont."
how apt.
thinking abt this close to a year after he said this to me, i think it really is so true.
i always place in my own perceptions of what i think a guy is like and i fall for that idealised 'guy' that i conceived from my brain waves. but reality hits me hard when i realise that what i perceive is not always what is real.
(isnt the theme of appearance vs reality just so familiar? like a certain mr sim tried to ingrain this into us for the last 2 yrs at jc??)
i end today's entry with a sigh.
