.Sunday, May 07, 2006 ' 16:28 Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.you still are.
it's sad for me to see how our years of friendship is now almost equivocal to a nonentity.
i saw it strain after we went our separate ways 3 yrs ago. and yet, i dismissed it as something temporal and transient.
much as i hate to admit it, im finding it harder to talk to u much less confide in u.
i know, i may not have been the best of the people u've met. and i may not be the most enjoyable people around.
but if our friendship were anything to go by, i'd always felt that sincerity was the key.
it seems that of late, u made it a point to stress the differences between us.
the racial differences, the disparity in social status and now, the changes in our educational pursuits has became a source f contension.
these were issues that never mattered to us before. there were not even issues to begin with.
i had 3. i lost one even before we ended sec sch. another one is on the verge of disappearance. there is one more hanging by me. but im not sure that my platonic friendship with him will last into adulthood when major issues begin to take shape in our lives.
enuf on this. im tired already.
im grateful that i have a bag of sugar supply with me right now.
and im so enjoying this zero commitment partnership. i refuse to think into the future since i dont noe what the future holds. im just seizing the moment and enjoying every drip of honey while i can.
